I have been working on this for a while.
well, scratch that, I have been thinking about working on this for a while
and only being proactive about it for a short time.
I have always been opinionated and stood firm in my beliefs.
I have "done my research" and believe what I believe for a reason.
Yet I have realized I approach sharing my thoughts/beliefs in a "worldly way" instead of the way Christ would.
I let my passion come out in my voice, using too many words, instead of being silent and listening.
I think we've (okay, maybe just me) lost track of the value of silence, and listening.
When I was in 8th grade, I heard my old middle school youth pastor speak to a boy in our youth group. This boy was quiet, not really shy, but just reserved, and calm (quite a feat for a middle school boy, right?).
Our youth pastor said to him:
"You're quiet most of the time, but people know to listen when you speak because they know if you're going to say something, its going to be worth hearing."
At the time It didn't resonate with me completely. But there is a reason I have remembered that for the last decade
(that makes me sound too old.)
I believe that reason is because I needed to hear it now and I can understand its importance and value.
So I have been challenging myself to live my life through my actions more than my words.
It is hard for me to hold my tongue, believe me, but I think its benefits will be well worth it.
I will (try) to let you know how it goes.
Our Peonies on our mantel.